Disappointment

I was disappointed to discover the tea was in fact milk. I took a sip and as soon as it hit my taste buds I knew it was funny. I looked in the glass and guess what? It was the milk. Leftover, nasty ass milk. I think the worst part is, I want to dip my brownie in it a few more times.

I am tierd yet I cannot sleep. I yearn for the relaxation amd peace you experience during slumber. I require the rest to fuel my day.

Currently

I am listening to Roxanne. I am also trying to remember who the womanize of last night was. Someone asked me "Whats wrong" Desiree and I laughed but I can't remember who asked me..... huh

The Night of Roofs and Grass

Yesterday after school, I went to Coldstones with Desiree, Aaron, and Paul. From there, we started to walk along Pine Island toward my house but decided to stop at Nick Zoeller's for cigarette's. When we got there I realized he is my neighbor! Ahh the irony. See I saw him a few nights while walking with my friend and I would say how I like his hair and he probably is cute. Anyway, Desiree, Aaron, and I left Nick Zoeller's house for mine leaving Nick and Paul to chill for a bit. Desiree, Aaron and I were in my room having lots of fun. Yes, and so Paul came to my house. A little bit later he left. The remaining chillin' and I made brownies. We never did eat them. Once I took the out of the oven, we left for an adventure. We started to walk to circle K where we would meet up with Nick Zoeller. We got to circle K went inside the drink freezer!!! Chilled for a bit then head off! We were wondering around and decided to go to Jessica's house. She was packing but coaxed her out of her home and onto her roof. On the roof we relaxed and just chilled. Jessica was talking to Desiree and Aaron was talking to Nick Zoeller. I didn't want to be part of either conveersation. I was upset at the world and all that fun stuff. First Aaron tried to cheer me up. FAIL!! Then Desiree tried. She was better than Aaron and I could plaster on my fake smile afterwards. So Nick, Aaron, and I descended from the roof. We headed for circle K but did want to go to far from Dez. Aaron wanted pop so he biked over to cirlce K leaving Nick Zoeller and I to have fun. Aaron came a calling. Pants and Shirts were fixed then we emerged from the bushes. Holy shit is grass itchy!! Yes, and so we found Desiree and she realized why she like scum so much, she wants to turn it into not scum. She is such a loving person. I didn't have time to tell her of the fun I had in the bushes with Nick Zoeller. Aaron and Desiree left Nick Zoeller and I so they could walk Jessica home. We went to the convent store, got water and chilled out front 'till their return. On the walk home, Desiree had Nick Zoeller prank call Robyn, Mickey and unknown. My words is he funny. We returned home, dropped off Nick Zoeller. Aaron and Desiree got their belongings and left. I got in no trouble except for the fact I wouldn't get money for when my mom is gone. I showered, texted some friends then went to bed.


I had an absolutely wonderful evening, and I owe it to my trying to be social and winning!!!

Coldisackk

I was just lying talking to Dana when Astin drove by. I have been wanting to re-friend him for some time. I need his hugs. So we walked over to him, had a few laughs. I got covered in his meat juice. When it came time to depart, I thought it to soon to hug, but he asked. I could not refuse despite everything. I am proud to say it made me feel better a bit, but his other hand was on his meat.

the joys of living in a coldisack with dana and astin

Yet Again.

Yet again I am failing to "buckle down" and do my school work. I think I will try to revert to my old Georgia speech. Pop instead of soda, school work instead if homework ect. ect. I really miss it up there and sad that I don't reside in Snellville anymore. I can't wait to move back to Atlanta. Yes, I am not in one frame of mind at the moment. I feel very scattered and disconnected. This is a sad realization because I want to have an organized life.

Pocrastination Nation

I fail at sitting down at the jeering desk. Instead I plop onto my bed in a feverous search for Louis Rayes on Facebook. I need to do my history homework so I can prove i am smart and determinated to pass in a honors class. Three of my classes are absolutely wonderful but my fourth class is horrendous. I dread walking down the long hallway to get to Mr. Cardinle's class. I'm hoping to go to guidance to switch it. Oh yes, lunch is splendid. I stroll with Desiree and Dannie P. Yes, that is all.

im going to the mall today with my mother. Im hoping i find relaxation in shoppin

All in All This Is Your Death

I am under the belief that if I pretend everything is okay then it will be. So far so good. I can't deal with these things yet. I'm not ready to face family trials like these.

im supposed to be the strong one yet tears are welling up in my eyes. i know that i cant always be strong but right now i need to be. I need to prove myself.

Today i found out what my new "thing" is going to be. I just found out my grandma died. This is so... well its not suprising but its sad. Im gonna be a smoker.

tomrrow will be my fresh start. im going to stop trying to be who i am and just do it. i will learn to embrace life and try new thing cheers!!

Im testing my mobile blogger

What Wrong?

Im sitting with Desiree in my room talking about the womanizer men that we have connections with. We may hate some and still be friends with the others. Anyway we have a had some sort of physacal realtionship with each. While talking I made a connection that the womanizer men I have been with have always asked me "Whats Wrong?" Nothing has ever been wrong when they asked but they still asked. As soon as I said this Desiree said "It must be a womanizer thing. Wait..... (*name*) said that to me too!!!" So we wanted to blog about our findings!!

So I recently visited my dad in the mountians of Tennesse

And while I was up there i had a couple of thoughts that I wrote down

"I remeber before 9/11, my dad and I would ride the Marta down to Dekalb to sit and watch planes take off. We would spend the day doing absoultly nothing but thats why I think I remeber it. We would just be at peace with our self's. it was all so easy when I was younger, i didnt have to pick anything other than ice cream flavors. I also didn't have to pick who i wanted to spend my time with. I could just go knowing i had tomorrow to spend with the other parent."

I think that this really helped me get close to my dad. We would spend so much time togeher but now I never wanna go up to visit.

"Since when did my dad start doubting Joseph's and my abilites so much? i think maybe i have been to blind to notice or just to niave. Which ever I still cant belive it. He starts by telling Joe how to drive then has the audacity to critizie his driving. Joe is a better driver than our dad by far!! My dad also is completly shocked when I can paddel a canoe. Umm hello!! iI've benn doing it half my life, of corse im good!"

I just think that he needs to relize we are old enough to have thoughts and feelings.

*sigh*