And i realized that elmo wasnt going to be able to comfort me. for one he was sticky. and i think that was my sign. no there isn't a two

I can't..

.. bring my self to separate myself from the idea of us. True, we may not have courted but I still fell as though our conversations were enough. I know I would fail us, but I still want to try. I want to be able to have the capacity to care for a guy. For you. I want to be able to have someone to write to. I want to be able to go on adventures late at night. I want to be able to lye in your arms under the sky and wonder if it is real. I want that. I wanted you. I know that I cannot have you and must somehow pull away. It won't be the same way as last time though. I will keep your friendship forever.

The Complexity

Joe is here. That makes me happy, but my creativity is not. I am lacking so bad!! I just need to get out and shot for pete sakes!!

Ninja Boy

i remebered a dream for the first time in a year and a half. i was on the big cruise ship with my mother! We had such a good time!!!

I cannot wake up in the morning w/o you on my mind

I fathom the idea that you will be in my life again. I am completely beside myself. Yet, I am looking forward to seeing you again. The music is making me dream. it has such a dreamy effect on my body. AFF makes me want to dream. To be able to remember my dreams, even if they are the nightmares you caused. *SIGH* I have painted my nails and I am ready for tomorrow. I just want to get it over with so I can clean my room and take care of Dana.

i really dont know if im ready to give up my grudging behavior. i have been hiding behind this hate for so long, what if the love is still there...

Drug-Craze-Cig

As I wash my hands to rid of this stench, I can't help but to wonder what you think of it. I know its my craving. Are you going to punish me for fulfilling my desires? I think not. Now, I am rinsing my hands, my self, of all of you.

Kids

You were a child. Crawling on your knees toward it. Making momma so proud,But your voice is too loud. We like to watch you laughing,You pick the insects off plants. No time to think of consequences. Control yourself, Take only what you need from it. A family of trees wanted. To be haunted. The water is warm. But it’s sending me shivers. A baby is born. Crying out for attention. The memories fade, Like looking through a fogged mirror. Decision to decisions are made, And not bought,But I thought this wouldn’t hurt a lot.

I guess not

Still dont like you. Don't think I ever will. Oh and you still haven't looked!! gahhhhhhhhhhh

Relationships

I like the theory of it. When it comes to actual thing, I can't deal.

So tonight is gonna suck dick. walking then leaving. dude wtf!!! i wanted to go to that concert

I have a funny feeling in my tummy.

The loss of one, two, maybe three friends is just the start. I will eventually be all alone. I don't want to think about this life that I have to live. I'm tired of living up to the JOE standards. I am me. I don't do core I do curricular. Let me be!

To Sink OR Swim

I need my mirror. I am scared of clowns. I have a new camera. I love my ring. I cant stand you.


Yup. Those are things that weaken me.