It may be my uber frustration at this moment or maybe the horrible essay i'm writing. Which ever reason, I am fed up. i sorta thought you would miss me by now. True I haven't called you but if I did i'm not too sure it would make a difference. Your all caught up with your new friend to notice how I actually cared for you, not your connections. When we were at the peak in this friendship, I saw you almost every night. I don't mean to sound crude or something of that sort but I need to be true to myself. I have tried act it off. "Oh, I don't really care" LIE!! I may not love you like I love my best friends but I still have fucking feelings! One last thing, you called her. I mean come on!!! She said she didn't want to talk to you. I never even talked to you about it. For fucks sake!!