A Repeat Of The Hurt

I want to leave. I don't give a shit about anything. Well except the fact that I'm fat and unlovable. Thank you dear friends for helping me realize that. I deiced that I will do my diet and recluse. I will recluse because I thought I was lovable but now I just don't know. Being a recluse will save my heart. It will save it from disappointment. I thin k that I already figured this one out with Astin but whatever!! Wonder if this will lead to me curled up on my bed ignoring my phone again.